Yin and Yang

I'd build myself up

And fly around in circles

Waitin' as my heart drops

And my back begins to tingle

Finally could this be it?

(Chasing Pavements, Adele)

Have you ever had any of those moments, where it seems like different parts of your mind or subconscious are fighting with each other? Particularly the side of you that is optimistic against the pessimist you. It's not fun, isn't it? 'cuz it makes you go crazy and turns you into the insomniac you are now - 'cuz everytime you lie in bed and stare in to the darkness, hoping to get some sleep, your mind started having this endless debate.

come on, gimme a break.

When you're faced with a situation, where you know there's an ending coming. At times, you wanna feel optimistic and say "I don't wanna dwell over the fact that it's gonna end, I'm just gonna let that happen one day - and before that happens, I'm gonna make sure I make the best out of the days I have left"

and then, reality screams to your face "it's gonna end godammit! and you have nobody by your side when that happens! for all you know, it's gonna end tonight" *plays All American Reject's "It Ends Tonight"*

[what? am I not allowed to be all dramatic now?]

So what're you supposed to do? Be happy with the fact that things are still in fact the way it is, or worry about what's going to happen at the end of the day?

Should I give up

Or should I just keep chasing pavements?

Even if it leads nowhere

Or would it be a waste?

Even if I knew my place

Should I leave it there?

Should I give up

Or should I just keep chasing pavements?

Even if it leads nowhere,

Muaz Al Rashid