Random

I haven't posted anything in quite a while.. it feels like as if I'm starting to lose connection to actual blogging as opposed to micro-blogging. The idea of fitting a whole post in one short sentence is quite enticing; it kind of lets people wonder what the details of it might really be... what triggers that one short "status update".. keeping an ounce of privacy yet expressing yourself nicely in such a delicate amount...

At times, writing such detailed posts makes one feel that one might lose his or her entire privacy - one might feel that the more one writes, the more it becomes misconstrued by someone else's negative opinions.

I'm not saying that blogging is starting to scare me, I've already made quite a number of foes and might have stirred quite a battle with some people. But I've never really regretted any of it. The fact that these things happen, it helps you grow. It widens your horizons.

A lot of people hate being criticized because they're afraid of being out of their shell. There is a whole world upon us, and if we close ourselves to our little mindsets - not wanting to even listen (or read) someone else's differing opinion, we're not going to get anywhere but to only be stuck in our own shadows.

I don't know why I see things very differently from the masses; including my own family. Education? maybe.. television? maybe... I really don't know.. but that is what is special, yet intriguing about humans; sometimes there are really no answers to how something started. Like the typical "which comes first; the chicken or the egg?" question. Some things are just is. Like why am I a born a boy? why are my ears different? Why am I not blue eyed?

Yes, you can argue that life experiences shape a person's mindset; that's definitely one of the key components of it, but really there are times when you really think of it - why exactly are you more optimistic than you are a pessimist? it's as if we're born with some particular traits that act a like a chip inserted in us and that is how we operate - based on those traits that we inherited genetically.

But what about me? Why do I think so differently than quite a number of my own family members.. Why do I see things differently? Why do I look so much like my mother and yet think differently? I resemble my sister and yet we are almost completely different.

I don't even know why I am talking about this at 4 in the morning. I'm not even trying to explain myself.. these words just seem to flow to my fingers.

But yeah.. I have different opinions to quite a number of things... A friend said this the other day:

"They're not weird Muaz.. You are.. for being where you were to begin with.. You don't belong there - why were you even there?"

The ugly duckling... the black sheep.. typical things you can call me by.

Anyway.. the point is.. you may have different opinions.. but it doesn't mean that others have to follow suit.. it doesn't mean that you can't listen to someone else's point of views.. Listen to them - even if they won't listen to you. Agree is not a necessity, but listening and just understanding someone's stance on a particular issue might be interesting.

Open up your shell, and start living the world.

Love,
Muaz Al Rashid